11:51 p.m. - 2006-01-29
it hurts to wait. i dont know why. i dont understand. i just want it to happen.
want to stop worrying. want to stop caring.
i need this something. i feel tired and hopeless. i feel cried out and havent even begun. i feel a hole inside that gets bigger when i think about it. feels like its a really good thing or a really bad thing. feels like an empty bottle.
i cant see it.