9:54 p.m. - 2010-02-25
i dont know how to start or in other words how to write what i feel right now. angry and sad. sad and angry. maybe just sad and hopeless. it doesnt really matter. in a way, i knew this would happen sooner or later.. but it is just so hard to actually accept it. i feel sort of betrayed and worthless. i thought we meant more to you. i knew things would not go back to how they were before, but i always held on to the fact you cared more. but i have been so stupid, how could i think you would choose us over yourself. i just wanted to say i will really miss you. we will really miss you. i cant even write this without feeling a knot in my throat. everything is just blurry now.
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